Introductions,..

Hello, my name is Janine Hayes.
I'm a single mother of four, a nanny, an artist, a comic and a nut. And let me be clear, I'm a nut by choice. Some people can't help it. I'm this way on purpose. (truth be told, I finally gave in to the,... 'myself-ness'?,.. of myself. I tried to subdue it for years but found I'd have more control steering the boat if I paddled 'with' the current. If ya get my,... drift?)

I am also the survivor of a broken heart. Really. It was an abusive relationship,( we'll talk about that another time, believe me!), and my heart was,... broken, completely, like two pieces,.. wires sticking out, sparks still spitting everywhere, not one connected vein,.. broken. The hardest thing I've ever had to do was to get over him, but,.. I am living proof that it can be done. Having four amazing children to love helped. A year of heavy therapy helped more.

The Single life and dating,...
After a year and a half of being single and forgetting that I even had a vagina I did meet a guy that reminded me of him, so, of course! like the genius I am, I completely fell for him,.. only to find out that he was NOT the abusive alcoholic that I once loved, the FAKE! and so I continued my long struggle to recreate myself, my self image and alter the type of guy I was attracted to.
I'm happy to say, it is working. And not just in my dating life but in all of my personal relationships and in areas of my life. I've found it's all connected.

So! my heart is healed and the pieces are back together. And? I haven't lost too much of myself in the process,... although, I do feel as though I've got a nice big scar down the middle of me but it serves as a wonderful reminder and guide. Kind of an 'emotional limp',.. to slow me down so I can more carefully navigate this crazy boat through the sea of my life. Sometimes I get a little excited, paddle a little recklessly,.. I've fallen over board a few times. But that's okay too,.. I love to swim. I'm good at it, and? I'm getting really good at climbing back on board, (which is NOT easy to do by the way! You have to disperse your weight just so, swing your leg over and curl your body up and in as fast as you can before the other side comes crashing down on you while trying not to feel like everyone and their mom is staring at you thinking, "what an idiot! she fell out again!" (SIGH!),... I just thank God for stand up and put in all in my act.)

Well listen,. there's a lot more but it's getting late so that's it for now,.. I just had to get something on here so my friend Doreen would stop hounding me to start a blog. (I'm kidding she's a wonderful support.)

Thank you for reading. I'm excited to have this blog to share with you some of myself, my life and lessons learned and maybe,... MAYBE!,.. IF! I'm in the mood,..a few jokes,...(okay a ton of jokes on here actually.)

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Thanks again, talk to you soon.
Janine